If you’ve read my blog any time during 2015, you’ve probably gathered this hasn’t been the best year for me. I spent the entire first half of the year submerged in darkness and struggling against an undercurrent that pulled me under whenever I caught a glimpse of hope. Keeping with the water theme, I noticed the tide changed in July. I was able to hold on to my first glimpse of hope that tomorrow could overcome the gloom of today. There have been setbacks since then, but for the most part, I’ve kept hope in my sights.
Over the weekend, while visiting my parents, my mom found a nest in one of their cactus plants. They have several different variety of cacti, each with varying degrees of pain associated with them. (I am not a fan of cacti at all. See, just the weekend before, I helped my dad clear out one that had blown down during a monsoon storm. I probably shouldn’t admit this, but I may have enjoyed using the ax a little too much :) ) Even with thick leather gloves, I managed to get cactus needles in my fingertips. And I know I’m getting old(er) because, although I could feel them, I couldn’t see them at all. That’s another blog post entirely…
So, back to the bird’s nest.
When I saw the nest tucked into the seemingly inhospitable “branches” of a cactus, I couldn’t help but relate this to my life. See, my life this year has been like that cactus. The spiny cactus isn’t the most welcoming home for most species, yet the wren is able to live there- the conditions even providing protection from many predators. (Would you go near that???) My life hasn’t been conducive to fostering hope, but I’m finding that in the absence of ideal conditions, hope still exists.
As I ponder life, both of cactus wren and my own, I can’t help but marvel at the resiliency of it. With the light of hope, I see the beauty of life again. Even through all the stuff that could turn my heart cold, I feel the warmth of “good” moments. That is hope.
I hope you feel it, too.
Have a beautiful Monday!
P.S. I’m still so far behind on reading blogs. Thanks to everyone for your patience as I try to get caught up… I have posts from May that I still haven’t read! And I thought life was crazy before school started, haha… let the games begin (again.)