One morning, I sat waiting for my older son to begin his running practice. Suddenly, I looked up and noticed the clouds. (Okay, it was prompted by my younger son yanking on my arm, exclaiming, “Mom, look at the clouds!”) I didn’t have my ‘real’ camera so my cell phone came to my rescue again. I did a mini photo session of him in various poses (he is such a ham) and several of the scenery.
I was drawn to the tree’s shadow. Sure, shadows are where scary things hide, especially at night, but shadows can also be harmless- even friendly, like shade on a sunny day. Depending on where the light source is, a shadow can be short or long- or not visible at all.
Metaphorically speaking, shadows conceal the hurts, worries, fears, let-downs and insecurities that I don’t want to represent me. The problem is that when my environment shifts, my shadows grow longer and the weak parts of my personality seem bigger.
I get bogged down by things that aren’t getting done. I forgot to check my younger son’s homework, I’m days late reading blogs, I worry that my rushed response to someone came off harsher than I intended. Then, I find myself in the shadow of these things, instead of taking in the peace and happiness that I want to fill me.
This past week, some uncertainty has been shifted. Hubby started a new job, but it’s less pay and longer hours, which brings a new set of challenges. Right now, it’s an income. Whether it’s a viable long-term option remains to be seen. I could linger in the familiar shadows, but I don’t want the darkness to become me. I want to look up, lift my hands and embrace the source of all light.
Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart (Psalms 37:4)
Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall. (Psalms 55:22)