The phone rings one evening and Caller ID reveals it’s a friend who has been MIA for over three months. Curiosity wins. Pick up the phone. Friend’s car is in the shop and she needs a ride to work. Never a call just to see how things are going…only when she needs something. Last time, she needed a dog sitter for a weekend vacation. Before that, she spent two hours complaining about her problems. The one-way conversation was an emotional drain. Can you help this time?
Attempts to sustain a friendship stall when messages go unanswered. How do you feel when you’re on the trying side of a relationship and the other person doesn’t make an effort?
As I said my prayers one night for those I know who face struggles, I also asked God for inspiration on my spiritual posts. I’d been praying for days (weeks?) and still, no inspiration. That’s when it hit me: I’ve turned into that friend in my relationship with God.
I’m the one who expects God to bless the lives of those in my prayers. I expect Him to drop blog ideas into my lap so I feel enlightened. I ask for guidance on my story writing. I expect Him to be there for me, when I want Him to be, yet I slack in my efforts to know Him better.
Here’s where I could insert a laundry list of excuses, but it wouldn’t matter. Excuses are just free passes to continue on the same path. The whole point of writing about my spiritual journey was to keep myself moving. (I tend to linger in stagnant pools simply because they are familiar.)
It would be easier if the Bible flew off the shelf and whacked me in the head. Since that hasn’t happened yet, I moved it back onto my desk. I want to get back into nightly reading (I’m not sure when or why I stopped.) Right now, I’m putting it in writing that I commit to find fifteen minutes even if it means I skip reading a couple blogs, omit a comment or two, or write a little less.
I know things are bound to get off-balance when one half of the relationship is human, but I need to make more of an effort if I am to grow my spiritual self.
Do you ever find yourself as the “slacker friend” in your relationship with God? How about in a human relationship? Come on, you can share your best excuses here 🙂 (Maybe I could use them.)
Did I mention that I have a lot of growing to do?