“Blah” days are wonderful for writing morbid, depressing stories riddled with misery and misfortune. On those days, it’s easy to dream up bad things to happen to unlucky characters. Rather than assume this is because I’m a cruel person, I prefer to rationalize it as me being an artist breathing authentic sorrow into the lungs of my characters.
Yeah, that’s a load of baloney. The fact is, if I’m not happy, my characters cannot be happy either.
This causes a problem when I’m working on a story that’s supposed to have a touching twist. On my “blah” day, it becomes a twisted ending instead.
Here’s what I mean. Monday was my “blah” day and it was also a day where I had a couple hours to write. My character was supposed to realize he misjudged someone before any harm was done. God had been watching over him.
My “blah” day would let me have none of that. My fingers typed out a scenario where my character killed the man. There was no contemplation or restraint – one blow and he was dead. Instead of God watching over him, Satan sat in the corner laughing his head off. That’s just not nice.
I deemed that writing a hope-filled story was hopeless that day, so instead, I wrote a blog post about my damaged washing machine. (Sorry about that, everyone. You’ll be pleased to know that my “blahs” have gone away. However, my washing machine noise hasn’t.)
Interestingly, I’ve found that if I am in a cheery mood, I can channel memories of anger, frustration, sadness, and basically any emotion that brings me down, to write a story. Why can’t it work the other way around?
Here’s a poem I wrote on Monday morning, before I knew the frustrations of the day:
Tears For No Reason
I woke in a mood –
A dark shade of gray;
Much sadder than blue,
Why did it find me today?
Songs of grace and glory,
Hope, love and redemption
Should be of comfort to me –
But tears fell for no reason.
Is your writing affected by your moods? Or are you able to overcome your mood and “become” your characters?