Over the last week, I’ve seen several blog posts from people looking back on the previous year as we head into 2011. Some have reflected in general terms, and many have shared the stats provided by WordPress about the blog’s performance for the year.
I’m certain that this wasn’t the intent of the bloggers, but after reading numerous posts, I wound up feeling defeated. Why? Because my number of visits and subscriber counts are WAY lower than the stats revealed by others. Luckily, I came to my senses rather quickly. Being introspective comes in handy that way (though it’s not of much benefit in social situations, as I alluded to in a previous post).
After I gave myself a mental shake, I reminded myself of the facts: I’m not blogging to win a popularity contest, but I can never make too many friends. Reaching a subscriber count or visit count isn’t even on my radar, even though I’m thrilled when I have a returning visitor, new visitor, or another subscriber. My goal is simple: I strive to write entertaining, and sometimes informative, posts that are appropriate for all ages.
This blog is like a mirror of my life. I’ve never been a part of the popular crowd, I’ve never had so many friends that I’ve forgotten how to be a friend, and I always remember the endless hollowness of feeling totally alone (though I haven’t felt that ache since childhood). All of this makes me truly grateful every time that someone visits my blog.
If you do a side-by-side comparison of my blog to many others, yeah, I suppose it comes up short. But I like short. Short is good. If I were to be a numbers gal (which I’m not), when I look at my own progress, independent of anyone else, I’m getting taller. My words are becoming more confident, and a small, but growing, number of people visit my blog regularly; some comment, some subscribe. I won’t give up any numbers, because that’s a secret best kept between me and my blog 🙂
Just because I’m only a small speck in the blogging world, doesn’t mean that my words are any less meaningful than the “big dogs.” In fact, it’s possible that my blog could hold its own with a medium-sized dog with a friendly demeanor…socialized to play nice with other (much smaller) dogs. Grrrr!
Thank you for bearing with me as I worked through this moment of insecurity. As much as I hate to admit it, sometimes I do succumb to the tug of peer pressure, and the urge to be in the running for the big numbers. However, I’m pleased to report that I’m back to my normal state of blissful indifference.
What part of blogging are you preoccupied with – Content? Stats? Comments? Or are you a go-with-the-flow type? Please share your thoughts, but not your stats!