Grateful Illumination

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Clouded by the myth of what I cannot do,

or do not have,

I settled in the bleakness

of absence.

Backwards thinking

turned me blue,

closed my eyes-

until grateful found my heart.

Now,

I’m filled with appreciation of

childrens’ laughter,

ice in my tea,

cats purring in my ear,

dogs’ devotion at my feet,

crickets chirping at night,

crisp evening air,

sun setting behind pines,

the blessing of God’s grace,

finding peace

from shadows in my mind,

searching my soul

for the light

that was always there,

but I forgot to behold.

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I wrote this a couple months ago after I started to come out of a funk.  The crisp evening air is now “cold” but grateful fits as we celebrate Thanksgiving here in the U.S.

I have one more addition to my grateful list:  Holly.  We met for lunch after not seeing each other for over twenty years.  In fact, we didn’t have any sort of contact until about a year ago when a strange twist put us in touch again.  Perhaps we will have a chance to meet up again in the future.

Once again, I’ll be away from the computer for a few days, so I’ll catch up with comments and blog reading over the weekend.  I hope you have a beautiful Thanksgiving.  If you don’t celebrate, I hope you feel the warmth of grateful on this Thursday.

Seasons of Friendship

Tis the season...for lights and friendship
Tis the season…for lights and friendship

Not all friends

Stay with us for life;

Some appear when we need them

Only to drift away again.

They see us through seasons,

Like angels,

Give a shoulder or a hand-

Strength when we need it.

When a season passes,

And our friend is gone,

We might not see through the sadness,

The possibility of a new dawn.

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I got the best Christmas gift ever this year.  It doesn’t fit in a box…didn’t cost a dime…can’t be shopped for at the store.  I bet you’d never guess in a million years what it is.  We survived the Mayan apocalypse, but I’m fairly certain none of us will be here in a million years, so I’ll just end the suspense now:  I am back in touch with a lost friend.  Not just any friend:  Holly- the one credited in my ‘About’ page with introducing me to poetry (which has led to story and novel writing).

How it happened is so crazy, I still can’t believe it.

Someone recently left a comment on my blog that made me question if I knew this person.  Curiosity prompted me to channel my inner cyber-stalker and I emailed him a few questions.  He responded and his answers proved this was someone I knew in high school – over twenty years ago!  It turns out that he stayed in contact with Holly, and passed my email info along to her.  She emailed me right away.

Since that day, Holly and I have sent a flurry of emails back and forth, exchanged family photos, reminisced, and tried to catch up on over twenty years of life.  Neither one of us can remember why we lost contact- there wasn’t a falling out of any kind.  She lives far away from me, but we plan to keep in touch, at least through email.  We hope to manage a visit into our schedules (and budgets).

This whole thing is so amazing to me because I don’t have a strong online presence.  I don’t do Facebook, I don’t Twitter, and it’s not like this is a mega blog viewed by thousands.  If my old friend had not stumbled upon my blog or commented using his real name, none of this would have happened.

But he did.  So this Christmas, I have been re-gifted not one, but two old friends!  Yes, I have two more blessings to count today.

What was your best Christmas present ever?  Do you have a gift you wish you never would have received?  Have you been reunited with old friends through your blog?

One of Many

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I’ll be online a little less over the next couple weeks.  My lack of novel writing is nagging at me and my Christmas gift to myself is to devote some time to it (you know in all the spare time I’m bound to have with family obligations and the kids out of school :)).  I can’t promise l won’t do some reading, maybe even a writing challenge, but I wanted you to know this blog hasn’t been abandoned…it’s just resting.

Do you take blogging breaks?  If so, do you unplug completely? 

Distraction

I look

But sometimes I don’t see;

I miss

What’s right in front of me.

I observe

The beauty of a day;

Torn by

What might be in my way.

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My husband worked on Friday, so I was on my own with the kids.  We planned our day that morning and they kept me running well into the afternoon.  I had to laugh when I went to shred some junk mail and noticed this note on my computer keyboard:

“Stay off your computer or else”
(Even threats with misspellings should be taken seriously :))

It seems that my “sneaking” a few minutes blog reading while the kids are reading, doing homework, or playing do not go unnoticed.  This surprised me, because even if I’m in the same room when they are doing those things, they don’t pay any attention to me anyway.

I knew my older son wrote the note (he’s not one for subtlety.)  Of course, I had no intention of powering on my computer that day.  Fresh off the Thanksgiving holiday, I wanted to make sure my attention wasn’t taken from two of the people I’m thankful to have in my life.  When I teased him about the note, he said I was “always” on the computer.

I can see how it seems like that to him, but the truth is I have lots of things that distract me from my priorities.  (Note:  sadly, housekeeping is not one of my priorities or distractions.)  There are times when I think I’m dedicating time to appreciate what I’m thankful for, but an honest look tells me that I’m prone to distraction.

I’m thankful for my son’s reminder that undivided attention cannot be divided.

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Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

What’ll It Be – Sentimental or Spiritual?

Sundays have been reserved for writing about my spiritual journey for several months now.  Today is Mother’s Day, so I was faced with a choice:  spiritual or sentimental.

Read on and see if you were correct… Continue reading